so i officially did it! survived my first day in the big appleeeee :) mind you all i had at work was orientation, it wasn’t exactly a shift lol (it’s the little things!) i’m trying to bare that in mind amongst all of my angst and uncertainty…i get the overwhelming feeling that i’m not enjoying life and that’s not how i want things to be! thank God for my friend Cara who i have known for several years and she’s allowing me to share an apartment with her at little cost (i’m blessed). although after today’s experience and taste of how much i will be working at urban, i get the overwhelming feeling that i’m gonna have to find another job to survive lol. i’m a little wishy washy about what i’m supposed to be doing with my life (aren’t we all lol). but like what is my real passion? why am i not following Christ like i know i should and think i want to! bitterness is a dirty thing my friends… i’m also weighing my options for the summer and trying to decide what’s best. at this point i can’t waver or negate my decision in spending the summer in the city. one, i get to get out from under the “miserable state” i was in living at home with the parents, and i get to get my feet wet with what it is actually like living and working in the city, and help me decide if that’s what i actually want to do. half of me wants to just move to nashville, but then again, it’s all about connections. i can’t just roam around and expect to be successful in life lol. right now…i’m applying to a crap ton of coffee shops tomorrow cuz that’s the only thing i know a lot about besides violin. i’ll see how that goes and look at taking a couple of online classes, and HOPEFULLY a door will open for some musical opportunities this summer :) all in all, i’m just glad that i survived day one, and i am not as scared as i was last night lol. oh! and my train is so easyyy. just take the 1 to times square, hop on the 7 and get off at the first stop! easy peasy :) anywho, more to comeeee! time to get on the ball looking at online class shtuff. cheers!